Thoughts V1.0

1. I’ve been training in the martial arts for a lot of years and will continue to do so for as long as I can physically do so. I’ve had my share of injuries over the years which have slowed my training and given me barriers to climb and I have always managed to get over them. I have to admit it’s frustrating as fuck sometimes and I’ve had to change the way I do a lot of things but, I still feel pretty damn good overall.

2. Vegans be vegans, meat eaters be meat eaters, and whatever the fuck else you would like to categorize yourself as do whatever the fuck you want. Can we at least agree on one thing, the animals in factory farms should no be abused. It’s bad enough they’re bred for slaughter, at the very least they should be respected during their short lives. I don’t understand the constant back and forth argument about what we’re “meant” to eat. It’s all bullshit. There’s science to back every opinion because whoever pays for the science gets the scientific result they want. I do realize there are radical vegans who take things to far, there’s a fine line between passion and aggression.

3. Republican, Democrat, Libertarian, Green, Constitution, Socialist, conservative, liberal, left,right, center, blah, blah, blah.
How about do whats best for the people and stop deciding everything by party lines. Common sense, and right or wrong no longer matter. At the federal, state and local levels politics have come down to just opposing each other without regard for the people they are supposed to be representing and looking out for. What makes this situation far worse is the “we the people” (hahahahahaha) let them divide us, so while they continue to bend us over we’re to busy fighting each other to realize it.

and lastly. I find it funny how many from my generation seem to have forgotten all we did growing up. Constant complaints about the current generation, millennial this and millennials that, well let me tell you this; every generation has its good and it’s bad, and by the way, if the millennials are fucked up please remember which generation is raising them. Oh yeah, I forgot; “not my kid”.

Lastly 2. Hey christians, you can’t pick and chose which parts of Jesus’ teachings you like.


If you find anything offensive start by looking at yourself. Typically if something offends you it most likely means it hit home…

Please don’t call me professor.

Have a great day 🙂




But I Thank………..

I don’t necessarily believe in the concept of God as this supreme being that has created everything and has predetermined our existence, however I find myself thanking him (or her) every day. I do believe that most of the stories written in the Bible are true, however in the cases where God is speaking to some of the cast I feel there is another explanation. Don’t ask me what that explanation is as I don’t know the answers, all I have is more questions.


BJJ Tournament Rules

It seems like every week a new grappling federation is popping up and holding tournaments. I think this is both good and bad. Good in the way that our sport is growing in popularity, and bad because with this growth usually comes the watering down of the original intent of the “art”. The original intent of Brazilian Jiu Jitsu was self protection, self protection in the way that a smaller person could defend themselves against a lager attacker. The original intent of Tae Kwon Do was self protection, typically meeting force with force with defensive maneuvers and punching and kicking. With the popularity of Tae Kwon Do tournaments the rules slowly began to change. First the punching began to fade then the contact began to fade. When I trained in TKD we fought when we sparred, there was contact and if the fight went to the ground as most fights do you’d better know how to fight there as well. We didn’t go for points for one simple reason; if you get attacked your attacker will not stop attacking because you scored a point.

While I feel that sport martial arts are good it’s the rules that water down the martial art itself. Traditionally speaking, if you got a black belt it meant you could fight and defend yourself, now if you get a black belt in a martial art designed for competition that meaning isn’t necessarily true. A lot of black belts today have a false sense of security due to the sport aspect of the what they are learning.

Now here’s the issue I have with all the grappling tournaments that are popping up every week, each one has a different set of rules, and much like what happened to TKD this is watering down BJJ. More and more schools have a sport based curriculum (if they have a curriculum at all) and this takes the self protection out of the art. While I agree that for children there are certain things that need to be modified in both training and competition for safety, however adults need to train the art as it was meant to be. Therefore as an adult in competition there should not be limits on the moves and submissions that are (or least least should be) part of every adult BJJ academy curriculum. I realize there is no easy answer to this issue, however I feel it needs to be addressed.


To be continued…




Hero is defined as 1. A person who is admired for great or brave acts or fine qualities. 2. A person who is greatly admired. 3. A person noted for feats of courage or nobility of purpose, especially one who has risked or sacrificed his or her life. 4. A person who, in the opinion of others, has heroic qualities or has performed a heroic act and is regarded as a model or ideal.

I think most Americans agree that members of the United States military are heroes, they go into a foreign land and risk their lives for the interest of the United States. That said, to our enemies they are no heroes, they’re villains destroying their homeland. I also believe that the majority of Americans consider law enforcement to be heroes, however there’s a large portion of people who consider the police to be bullies or worse. I think we can all agree that firefighters, EMTs, and paramedics are heroes. To kids growing up their favorite athlete can be a hero, to a young boy his father, and to a young girl her mom. The list goes on.

There really is no clear cut criteria, it’s all subjective, a hero to you may not be a hero to me and vise versa.

Courage – the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery.

There are lots of ways to look at this as well. It takes courage to go fight a war, go into a burning building while everyone else is running out, apprehend an armed criminal, get into a cage and fight another man, go to school on your first day when you don’t know anyone, fight cancer, tell you mom you did something you weren’t supposed to, admit to yourself your family and friends that you are gay, etc, etc..

Just because you may disagree with what others perceive as courage doesn’t diminish their perception of it. To compare someone who’s fighting cancer, to someone who lost a leg in war, to a transgender person is not fair. The phrase apples to oranges come to mind.

So did what Bruce Jenner did take courage? Yes

Is Caitlin Jenner a hero? To the others who are going through the same struggle, Yes.

I personally do not see Bruce/Caitlyn as a hero, but I do think he/she showed courage. Either way none of this affects my life so I move on.

Why are so many of you so angry over this? Keep scrolling, change the channel, whatever. Why must everything fit within your realm of what should be. We all need to accept the fact that we are all different, with our on views, needs, and beliefs.

And stop bring God into everything it’s irrelevant to the conversation, and from what I understand about Jesus he would be not only tolerant of all this, but helpful and supportive.


Mr/Ms Perfect

I’ve been a musician for a long time. I know my limitations, I’m not a great bass player, guitar player, or singer. I’m aware of what I do well and where I’m weak. I know when I have a good performance and a bad performance. By the way a good performance doesn’t mean I played every note perfectly, if it did I never had a good performance in my life. Being critical of every note is completely ridiculous. If thats how you listen to music you’re cheating yourself of enjoying the experience. Nobody plays every note perfect, and I do mean nobody. Musicians at the highest levels are not perfect 100%.

Another thing, although I like most music there is good and not so good in every genre. There is music I really like that most people I know think sucks. In my opinion (for what it’s worth). No music sucks. You may disagree with how it’s created, the way it sounds, whatever, that doesn’t make it suck.

Anyway back to my original point. I’m not the greatest musician, I make lots of mistakes, I have to read charts to play songs I’ve been playing forever. When I sing I go off key at times, hell sometimes I can’t even get back on. I have good nights and bad nights. But the most important thing is I get out there and do it. I put my fears and insecurities and social anxiety aside and give it my all every time I step out on that stage. Whether it’s the smallest bar with my cover band or a big stage with my original band, you get 100% of my heart and soul in every performance.

Think about that next time you say someone sucks. Especially those of you who have never put yourself out there for all to be critical of. So if you can’t even play the guitar you probably shouldn’t be talking about how much someone else sucks at it…

Just something to think about..



The Theory of Video Game

So, when you’re sitting in front of your computer playing video games, do you ever wonder if the people in the video game know they’re in a video game, or do you think that they think they’re real, or do you think that’s just a crazy question.
How about you? Are you real, or are you just living inside a video game? How do we know that we’re not just some greater beings version of “Sim City”.
How do you know that the God you pray to daily is not just some teenage kid getting stoned sitting at his computer playing a game.
Ever have deja vu? That’s because Juniors computer crashed and he had to go back to a restore point a few days earlier, and you are in fact re living a recent period of time.

So there’s all these discussions out there, we were created by a superior being (God), science says a big bang and evolution, Lloyd Pye says where were brought here as slaves from an alien race from the 10th planet of Nibiru (of the 3 this makes the most sense), well here’s my new theory, The Theory of Video Game, we are nothing more than a simulated world created within the computer of a greater being, much like the worlds we create within our computers when we play games. That’s all we are, a simulated game.

I know, it sounds crazy, right? Any crazier than a supreme being who lives in a mystical place (Heaven) and created everything (earth, people, water, sky, sun, planets, etc) in 6 days then rested for a day, then just sat back to watch and see what would happen. But, our lives are supposed to be predetermined, so he (or she) should already have known how it was going to play out. But you see, he (or she) didn’t, and he (or she) didn’t like the way things were going, so he (or she) told Noah to build an ark and get a male and female of every animal and take them with him. Then he (or she) flooded the earth to kill everyone and start over again (hey thats similar to my restore point theory).
Then a few years later he (or she) decided that he (or she) wanted a son so he (or she) planted his (or her) seed in Mary, Josephs wife, who Joseph apparently never had sex with, but wasn’t upset or suspicious when she became pregnant, heck of an understanding guy that Joseph.
Anyway, many years later when Jesus was all grown up and banging hookers, he was charismatic enough and had the ability to get people to believe in him and follow him, but than one day he was convicted and sentenced to death by crucifixion and he died for my sins, died for my sins, died for my sins, a couple thousand years before I was born. Then a few days later, he came back to life and hasn’t been seen since. Wow, thats quite the story.

Then there’s science, and the theory of evolution, “theory” of evolution, “theory” you get my point. Ok so lets see, there was an explosion in the middle of nowhere, where there was nothing to explode, and a perfectly formed solar system with the ability to support life was formed from this explosion. But you see there was no life, but just like that explosion (out of nowhere) life was formed and grew and evolved into the beauty you see around you now. Well that makes perfect sense.

Now onto my man Lloyd Pye. I gotta say I love this guy, but he’s just as crazy as the rest, but he has some good theories here. The human race on earth was genetically engineered and brought here as slaves from an alien race from the planet of Nibiru thousands of years ago. He gets really deep into this and if I peaked your interest I suggest you go to youtube and look him up, whether you buy into it or not at the very least it is very entertaining. But my question is where are these slave masters who brought us here now, and how were they created. Were they originally slaves brought from another planet themselves, did they come from a big bang, or did “God” create them first, hmmm, I coming up with more questions then answers here.

So back to my theory of video game. We create simulated worlds inside our computers, we are a created simulated world within the computer of a greater being who is living within the computer generated world of the computer of a greater being who is living within the computer generated world of yet another greater being and on and on. Oh yeah and by the way the worlds inside our computers have computer generated worlds of their own. Wow, this is good stuff.

So where did these greater beings come from, how were they created, “God”, big bang, slaves to an alien race? Shit, looks like we’re right back where we started..

Hey maybe all the different “Gods” that people worship really do exist and are the only true life beings and they’re all hanging out together getting stoned playing a video game….

Think about that for a while.



The majority of my republican friends also consider themselves Christians; yet, they also seem to have the most hateful opinions on everything that differs from what they believe. The one comment I hear an awful lot when referring to democrats is; “the sheepole blindly following their leader”. Well here’s a question for you. What is more crazy following a living human being who’s ideals and opinions and policies you agree with, or following a supreme being that created everything and has predetermined the path for every living being but has never been seen by a human being?
Now I know I have a few friends who claim they have “died” and come back and have seen what’s waiting on the other side so let’s start there. You didn’t die and come back, that doesn’t happen. (Unless you think the movie Reanimator was real)Your heart may have stopped beating but your brain was still functioning. So, did you actually see anything, or did you dream of what you believe is waiting for upon your passing?

I believe in spirits, or ghosts or whatever you want to call them, I’ve experienced it firsthand. That being said brings the question, do I believe in god. Well do I think there is a supreme being who created everything and predetermined everything that has and will be happening? No. Do I believe there is something waiting for us? Yes. But just what that is who knows? NOBODY.

By the way I believe in Jesus. I believe he was a charismatic individual with a vision and the ability to get others to follow him and believe in his vision. Kind of like Charles Manson, David Koresh, and Reverend Jim Jones just to name a few.

So back to my republican friends, by the way my voting history is republican. I did not vote for our current president in either election; however, I accept the results from those elections. Just because your candidate lost, that doesn’t mean his opponent (the winner) stole anything. Try this, accept the present, keep you values (without the hateful attacks on everyone who disagrees with you), and make a difference with fact (not hate) for the next time around.

One last thing, this is for both sides. When you refer the bill of rights, specifically the 2nd amendment read the whole thing. All the words count and have meaning, not just the select few that strengthen your agenda.
Fire away


Sometimes I wake up in the morning and just jump up and I’m ready to go start my day, sometimes well, not so much.

Sometimes I go the gym and have a great workout and leave feeling elated, sometimes well, not so much.

Sometimes when I look in the mirror I love the person I see, sometimes well, not so much.

Sometimes I look out the window and see a bright and sunny day, sometimes well, not so much.

Sometimes I see a world full of possibilities with no limits on my dreams, sometimes well, not so much.

Sometimes the smile on my face is genuine, sometimes well, not so much.

Sometimes I believe in God, sometimes well, not so much.